ETERNAL MATERNAL LOVE
A MOTHER’S JOURNEY THROUGH LIFE AND DEATH
“The cosmic womb is now a place where I meet my son. Breathing in love and exhaling gratitude for all that is, in mindful stillness, he shows up. I see him in his blue light energy - Master Energy, dancing his way to me through the cosmos. He never lost consciousness, he gained it.”
Barbie Herron Conkling
I had the honor of visiting Barbie Herron Conkling at her home in California. Surrounded by the sacred energy of her land, we connected over the life and legacy of her son, Lyon, the divine mother, feminine energy, and the power of maternal bonds. Photographs by @maiwennraoult.
Barbie pictured within the medicine wheel she created in her backyard, a powerful symbol of healing and spiritual connection.
“When asked where I reside in my heart, my answer is simple…the spaces in between.”
I am a Dweller on the Threshold. Non-attached, outside the box and forever expansive. The perfect balance between the vertical (spiritual) and horizontal (physical) worlds. Somewhere in the middle of those two worlds I remind myself that I am a child of the Divine, made up of the essence of Love, seeds of God - growing, learning, connected, evolving… Just having a human experience.
Within that space of perfect harmony, I am guided by The Divine Mother. Her wisdom. Her strength. Her truth. She walks with me as I journey through my life course and sits with me in the cosmic womb as I become quiet and still. She held my hand as I birthed my first born son, infusing me with her resilience and strength. A young 17-year-old girl who remembered the assignment, through time and space - The Soul Contract made between myself and this child many moons before.
She lay beside me as I held him in my arms as he took his final human breath, reminding me that she too, witnessed her child suffer and had to release him to go back Home to God. The gift of Motherhood. The sacrifices made. To carry the weight so that our babies don’t have to. I was blessed to be there in those final moments because that’s what Mama’s do. Unconditional love with no expiration dates. A love so deep, so pure that it holds no limitations to this horizontal world. Soul love in it’s purest form.
She is the continuous strength and wisdom bestowed in every cell of my body, as I have invited her in to lead the way and help me co-create this experience. My grief is her grief, her grief is my grief. Connected through our mutual maternal love and the seeds of our Eternal Creator.
The cosmic womb is now a place where I meet my son. Breathing in love and exhaling gratitude for all that is, in mindful stillness, he shows up. I see him in his blue light energy - Master Energy, dancing his way to me through the cosmos. He never lost consciousness, he gained it. His soul is vibrant and alive and he kisses my forehead then whispers through the spaces in between. “I Love you Mama, I Love you so damn much!”
Lyon taught me how to love. He taught me how to trust but most importantly, he connected me to the Divine Mother Energy. I have never questioned this blueprint, the lessons are much too deep. Our souls knew exactly what we were doing when we chose to take on these bodies, in this lifetime. I know now that his birth was a parallel to his passing. He completed his cycle and it was time to walk him to the veil just as I had welcomed him in. How lucky am I that he chose me!
In the arms of the Divine Feminine. The Eternal-Maternal Bond.
Lyon Forever.